noticing the joy

Yesterday I was in a bad mood.
I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
The girls woke up on the wrong side of their bed.
Even Court woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

I was feeling awful.
We were all feeling awful.

There was a negative energy floating around my house yesterday morning.

It would have been so easy to just wallow in our own pity party all day, but I decided the girls and I were going to have a morning out.
I had no idea what I was going to do. I called a few friends, but no one was available. It was quite early when I started planning our morning, so I wasn't surprised in the least that I could not get a hold of anyone.

We drove Court into work and headed on our way to the city.
This was great because my wee grumpaloo's slept on the way in.

I decided to go to kid kaf in bells corners. They have tones of plastic play structures for kids to play on, and my children go crazy for them. They are climbers. They climb everything and are so proud when they do it to. It is amazing to watch.

We got to kid kaf at around 9:30 am. The ladies were all refreshed from their sleep and were ready to play.

Charlotte went straight for a small play structure with a ladder and a small slide. It was directly in front of where I was sitting. She climbed up to the top of the slide and just stood up there for a good 15 minutes. She was watching everyone and laughing. She was higher then most kids and she was loving here view.

Chloe went straight for the play kitchen. She kept taking all the toys and putting them in the oven. She would put them in, close the oven, then open it again to get the toys back. Every time she would retrieve a toy from the oven she would look over at me with a huge grin.

They are such little hams!

I watched them play and walk around. They were having so much fun!
I was watching them interact with other kids, that was really neat to see.
There were a lot of older boys around the ages of 2 and 3 at kid kaf yesterday. I was noticing that when one of the boys would take a toy that Chloe was playing with, she would follow them around and when they were least expecting it she would steal her toy back.
As soon as she would have it in her hands she would walk away from them as quickly as possible. There was no crying or screaming (like when her sister steals a toy from her) she simply and meticulously would get the toy back. 
Also I noticed that the girls were mostly playing in completely different ends of the room, but no matter what, if something happened to either of them (like Chloe fell or Charlotte got pushed over by another kid) the girls would find each other to make sure they were ok. It was wild!
At home or on play dates, I don't get to see that becausee they are always together or very close to one another. It was amazing to watch their connection.

There was not a sign at all that they were a little grumpy earlier.
All they needed was a change of scenery.
I think they also needed a break from each other.
They needed a venue to play in were they could have their own space.

As I observed my amazing little girls, I felt happier.

I thought to my self, "why can' they just be enough?"
Why do I get my self all in a tizzy, all angry and grumpy?
Why can't the innocence and joy of my two lovely little girls be enough?

I think we all get like this.
We start over thinking.
We throw pity parties and worry to much.

Really, why can't life just be enough for us some days?
The simple joys in lives.

Why can't we justt appreciate the little things to make us happy?
like the smile from our partners, instead of being angry that they never seem to listen to you.
or the silence of the morning, instead of always going and moving.
or the cat whiskers on your face in the morning instead of being mad you didn't get to sleep in.
the phone call from your grandparents instead of being stressed because you are too busy and have no time to talk.
why can't we take joy in the simple things that matter?


We all have joy in our lives, we just need to notice it more.
Why don't we?

 It is there, I promise!

Everyone chases after happiness, not noticing that happiness is right at their heels.
-Bertolt Bretcht

Have a wonderful day everyone!

Much love,

Jessica