Seize Happiness

 

My little guy is 8 weeks old today! 

To mark his mini birthday, the wee monster went to bed at 7:00 pm and only woke up once in the night for a quick bite to eat then right back to sleep.

I am actually sitting here writing this, drinking coffee and all three kids are still sleeping.

What a nice guy he is! (and some marvelous two year old's who are sleeping in for me!)

I needed a good sleep and he gave me one.

Thanks Canton!

 

 

Anyways, Life has been pretty fast paced all summer.

Alone Canton keeps me busy then add the twins and your in for a wild ride.

But I love it.

 

I have never felt happier.

Everyday I feel happy.

Maybe not all day but at least once in the day I stop a realize I am really happy.

 

Happiness has taken me in.

I feel that I am where I am meant to be.

 

I am a mama of three.

A protector of their innocence.

I am the kisses at night and the giggles in the morning.

The listener of their stories and the laughter to their jokes.  

I am not an interference but an observer.

 

 

I have found my groove.

My niche.

I don't feel like I am searching for more.

 

It is a nice feeling.

 

I am realize we are all meant to seize happiness in the life we are given.

We are not all given the same.

Each of our paths are different but we are meant to realize how to be joyful and full in our paths.

Take each moment for everything it is meant to give you.

Relish in the honesty and pure feeling of joy.

Really, isn't that all we can do?

Trying to do anything more is making the assumption that we can control the outcome.

And really can we do that?

We can control nothing more then our perception of the beauty of our lives.

 

 

 

 

 On a side note, I have been able to stick/progress to my previous vow (no yelling).

I usually have a slip up here or there but I am constantly writing them down in my journal and figuring out what I could have done better and how I feel after.

It seems to help me to take ownership in my mistakes.

 

 

Seize the moments of happiness, love and be loved! That is the only reality in the world, all else is folly.

LEO TOLSTOY, War and Peace

 

 

Have a happy and peaceful day.

 

much love,

 

Jessica

 

How can that face not make you feel happy?  I just took this picture. It is the look I get when I sing to him :)

 

 

 

 

 

My vow to change

This morning sucks and it is all my fault!

A little self deprecating, but right now I don't care.

I woke up from a not so smooth night with Canton and I guess it made me feel a little "grumpy".

I was trying really hard to pretend to be happy to be up for the day at 6:00 am, but I lost it.

I lost it on my girls.

Everything they did seemed to rub me the wrong way, and during breakfast I broke.  

I yelled, felt guilty and cried.

After my guilt tears, I finally composed myself and put on a "mom" smile for the sake of my kids and myself.

After breakfast, I was washing up Charlotte and Chloe, and Char says to me with a big smile:

"Mommy, you are not mean anymore."

It broke my heart.

Yelling is mean, especially to my two year olds.

Right now I am publicly vowing to stop yelling, altogether. I am not going to yell anymore. It makes people feel awful. And do I really want that?

I know if my husband (or any of my family for that matter) is reading this he will not believe my vow as I have been a passionate yeller forever. But honestly, I am done.

I know breaking coping patterns is tough but I need to find more productive ways to get my point across and not take things to personally (like when Chloe and Char disobey me or not listen, I need to remember not to take it so personally and get so angry about it.)

It is only 9:00 am, so I have the power to change the direction of this day.

It is not going to be negative.

We will have a good day!

Much love,

Jessica

My first month as a mom of three

Our newborn son Canton was born at the start of July.
It has been a whirl wind of a month.
He had a pretty traumatic entrance to the world, the poor wee lad. But he is healthy and content now.

But we could not be happier to have him here and healthy.
His sister love him.
They can't stop kissing him and petting him.
Life as a mom with three kids is actually running pretty smooth for the first 4 weeks.

I really anticipated it to be much more chaotic.
I guess it really is perception.
I want it to be calm, happy and content so it is much more likely to be a happy environment when I act like it is.
Even at its worst moments when all kids are screaming, I strap a smile on and pretend it is all good. It feels much better then getting stressed.

I really look forward to seeing how our family progresses together and develops our grove.

With Cantons arrival I feel like finally we are all here.
Our family is complete.

Much love,

Jessica


ps. I have not given up on a photo a day, I am just going to change it a bit. I am going to do my "favorite photos of the week" and post them on facebook weekly since the posting process on facebook is much easier then on blogspot :)

The Angry Cowboy

I didn't post yesterday, but here was my Canada Day picture.

Court and I had a very low key Canada Day.

The girls had wonderful day with their grandparents visiting lots of family.

It was nice for everyone :)

Today we decided to go for a nice walk before dinner at the Mill of Kintail.

A nice 'hike' and a good time playing on the playstructure.

It was a beautiful day!

Chloe and Charlotte are way to 'gutsy' for their dad to handle!

Before we headed out for our outing, we were getting our stuff organized and we found the girls in the living room looking like this....

Charlotte found daddy's cowboy hats. She told me she was a cowboy!

Chloe told me she was an angry cowboy.

It was a great weekend all around.

If only It had included having a baby.

Still pregnant and really hoping he comes soon!

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Much love,

Jessica

lets play pretend

Princess party.

Dress up on a saturday morning.

Nobody was feeling to energetic in our house today.

My husband is sick,

The girls are wild and a little on the grumpy side

and I am just plain grumpy due to being 4 days overdue and extremely uncomfortable.

This was the highlight of the morning.

It was nice to pretend we were someone else for a little bit.

Children's games are hardly games. Children are never more serious than when they play.

-Montaigne

Much love,

Jessica

Butterfly Beauty

A butterfly glass ornament at m y parents house. I really have never noticed it before, but it struck me today with pure beauty. 

"Mommy, I am flying like a butterfly."

The ultimate example of transformation.

Caterpillar to Butterfly. 

Pure inner truth and beauty.

Nurture and love, warmth and patience.

Of course she wants to fly like a butterfly.



My favorite picture of my girls today.

simple and loving

May the wings of the butterfly kiss the sun
And find your shoulder to light on,
To bring you luck, happiness and riches
Today, tomorrow and beyond.
~Irish Blessing

Much love,

Jessica

Where it is always June

Here is the beginning of my new project...

We got a new camera in April and I have been meaning to start using it creativly.

So here starts my 'A picture a day' project...

To help keep me concious of the beauty in each day.

Heres today's pictures.

(having a hard time picking just one....may need to bend the rules to a few pictures a day!)

Charlotte playing in the tunnel, hiding from her sister.

Chloe on the playstructure giving me a typical 'Chloe look'.

I wonder what it would be like to live in a world where it was always June.
-- L. M. Montgomery

Much love,

Jessica